I usually enter a new year full of energy, goals, and vision boards. I’m ready to leap, create, and move forward.
This year… I didn’t.
And I struggled to lift myself above that.
2025 was heavy. Globally, we watched ongoing war in Ukraine, the horrific suffering in Gaza, and endured relentless, polarising media cycles. Even when we tried not to engage, it all weighed on us.
So when people say, *“2025 was awful—bring on 2026!”*
I don’t feel excited. I don’t feel energised. I don’t feel ready for a bright new beginning.
Instead, I feel flat. Stuck. Unenthused.
But I know that is okay—I have the tools to work through this feeling and pick myself up.
### When Effort Doesn’t Match Results
From a personal perspective, 2025 went well. I studied, planned, launched, added coaching to my healing business, facilitated a workshop at a large women's festival, and stepped into spaces that felt aligned. Most things flowed beautifully—but some simply didn’t.
I travelled, enjoyed good moments, and spent quality time with family and friends. Yet despite genuine effort, what I’d been working toward all year didn’t take. In December, I hit a wall.
Sometimes it isn’t one big event that knocks us off course. Sometimes it’s the accumulation—of effort, expectation, global heaviness, and personal hope—that leaves us feeling flat without knowing exactly why.
### It’s Okay to Pause
What’s hardest is the pressure to feel ready. Vision boards don’t land. Future planning feels foggy. But I’ve started asking a different question:
**What if this lack of enthusiasm isn’t failure—but protection?**
An invitation to pause. To listen. To notice what’s being triggered beneath the surface.
When motivation disappears, it can be wisdom—or it could be an old pattern or belief coming forward, trying to protect you.
### From Protected to Power
This is the space I’m working with right now—personally and professionally.
In February, I’m running a workshop called **From Protected to Power**. It’s not about forcing motivation or pretending everything is fine. It’s about communicating with the part of us that is protecting us, how we can make space, and gently move forward from a place of self-trust rather than self-pressure.
**Find out more and book your place now https://www.spiritlight.com.au/events/from-protection-to-power **
For now, I’m allowing myself to be here.
To soften the judgement.
To make space for what’s underneath.
Sometimes, power doesn’t look like pushing forward. Sometimes, it looks like listening—and choosing ourselves again.
